All consuming

People with chronic pain are twice as likely to commit suicide. If they are anything like me, it’s not just the pain you feel day in and day out. It’s how it seeps into everything. Adding things to your life that you desperately don’t want. Taking things away from you that you don’t want to lose. Hope. Pain. Fear. Addiction.  Stability. Functionality. Ambition.  Desperation.

I could write everyday for years and still probably never be able to sort it all out.  But if I try…maybe things will get just a little bit clearer.