Nausea is the absolute worst. It hit a few hours ago despite the fact that I don’t have much of a headache right now. Might be some kind of stress reaction. I took an anti nausea medicine that is placed under the tongue. The taste alone was almost enough to make me throw up. Seems kind of counterproductive. But it kicked in and I have felt a lot better since. Thank God. I kept getting drenched in sweat and was freezing. My face was ice cold. I guess it was kind of like the dentist office. However, that went away after taking the anti nausea meds so maybe my body was just stressed about feeling so sick.
I tried Aloe and ice on the itching hurting places on my palms. Today it looks like a really big dark purple bruise. I’m developing the spots on the soles of my feet as well. A deep itching that is so intense that it is almost painful, red, hot to the touch, bruised. I vaguely remember bruising on places like your palms and the bottom of your feet to be indicative of something really bad. I hope it is just some kind of stress induced allergy. I can’t decide if it is more painful or annoying.
My eye doesn’t seem to be getting any better despite the fact that I have been on the antibiotics for 2 days. But it also doesn’t appear to be getting any worse, which is a huge huge relief. I have this thing with my eyes. They are, hands down, my best feature and I would be devastated if something happened to them. Almost faced that once, when I was in the car wreck and they wouldn’t let me drink for hours while they tried to figure out if they would have to remove my eye. I was so scared that this infection was going to cause some kind of permanent damage. I guess it is still possible but as long as it is not getting worse, I can deal. Still painful and ugly but I’m hoping to see some improvement soon.
Still dealing with the widespread pain, constant headaches, skin hurting, exhaustion, hair falling out, and cuts on my scalp. At this point all of this is like background noise. I would really like to take more pain medication but I have already had enough for the day. I am not exactly sure when Dr. C is coming back but I want to see him as soon as he does. I want reassurances on this eye thing and the bruising. I also want to talk to him about possibly upping my pain meds. He’s not going to like that and neither do I. Everything just hurts so damn much. The last time I went to him, I couldn’t stop crying and he doubled my pain meds, taking me up to 20mg Oxy, four times a day. I don’t know if I want to try and increase that or just add one more pill a day. It’s possible that he will refuse and just tell me to suck it up. That would be totally understandable and I would deal. But Dr. C is also extremely compassionate and understanding. I can’t imagine him just saying “too bad” and leaving me in pain. So I guess we will see. I have finally gotten my blood pressure under control, it seems. By tripling my BP meds. That is good, my heart was working way too hard. Increasing to 2 Spironolactone a day seems to be having a good effect, I’m happy to keep it there. I am continuing to lose weight despite not exercising or having the best diet. I’m actually looking pretty good…assuming that I don’t go bald from all the hair loss and my eye doesn’t fall out.